I still can’t believe how fake you are. How you use your fake smile to convince others to believe that you sympathize. I seen your real face, without a mask. The Monster. I’m feel betrayed in a way but glad I not part of that spell you cast on people. You also tought me a lesson, “Dont be to nice”. I thought I was going to win something back but you just kept me close for you own need. Sorry buddy but if you say stuff like “I’ll give you a try” or “I think I like you” fuck that. I not you plan B.

Alrightyyyy talk to you lateerrr…. 

I guess tumblr is a lil journal to keep on track the things I do. Like a dairy, but public. I write things to remember how I felt in the past. Not that I’m person that keeps looking back for good memories but it’s more like who I was and what was going through my mind a couple a months ago. We mature everyday, I want to actually see it on my posts.

So I’m still looking to settle in Orlando. My friends told me to get a car then told me to move out. Not like both but one or an another. I’m more looking forward the apartment since I can use public transportation, but having a car could make everything more easy.

I’m also started to through myself out there. Starting the dating game. It’s a mess for since it’s been so long I haven’t done it. My flirting is not the best and I just get to not me when I really need to. Im not in a full position to start doing so but if there is somebody that actually wants to know me better I will be so happy.

Tonight I felt like talking. I met someone that works a Hooka bar. Tried to ask her out but she said she was really busy I didn’t argue and left. I don’t like been the guy on someone asking for a date. Not a beggar. But still I was looking forward to know her better. At least I made my first step on asking someone out.

Once again, I’m in a totally new country but this time is for living. I was asking for this since last October. In some way I’m very lucky to just to disappear from everything and just start a new life. But like always you just miss what you use to have.

Orlando is great! doing things that I could ever do before. Right now I’m just killing time in a Hooka bar drinking Mint tea. If I only had a car, I could go more into the city. Thera this place Thad has loads of events called The Social that I’d love to go. There’s also a air gun field and it’s really cheap.

On a different topic. Why when I meet a beautiful girl that actually fits in every way of my likes is taken, religious or both?! It’s not that I have a problem with any religion but I can always see that they limit themselves from good things that I honestly consider that they are harmless. I cant imagine me hanging out with a religious woman in a Hooka bar or smoking pot with me. Or even just getting plain drunk. Tired of this I decided just to forget about everything. Even though if I don’t make a move I won’t be with anyone any time soon. I have no car or apartment so let me focus on work.

The horrible feeling when you do something gross unconsciously and someone the entire act.